Quisqueyana Para Siempre

A good minute...

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 16:51:39 GMT

...since I last was on here. Lemme see, Im all settled in to my new house. Rented out the basement to this UMBC couple and one of the upstairs bed rooms. I found out the other day that Christian, my room mate, does the yea. He was like "you tryin to hit a laced J??" Uh, NO too much. And this dude smokes more trees then anyone I have ever met. He hits a J before he goes to work like almost everyday. He has had more sex then I have in my own house, and I have been here 2 months longer then he has. Pathetic on my part. His girl friend is mad cool, but she said she embarassed herself when Rick saw her practically naked down stairs, lol.

Second year med school is a lot more interesting then first year. We actually get to do physicals on patients and what not. Yaay!

Got a part time job working for a health advocacy company for 15/hour. I get to work whenever I want, since they know Im a medical student. So I just file and scan rich peoples health records. Lemme tell you, just cause you are a multi-millionaire, doesnt mean you cant catch the monk. I know this for a fact.

Claudia's baby shower is at my crib on December 16th at 4 pm. It is also serving as a house warming :-) So anyone can come through.

Scary Shit...

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 02:38:46 GMT

Sunday night I was out and came back home pretty early, around 1 45 or so. Semi-tipsy, nothing serious. I came in, and saw the trash was full so I decide to take it out to the garbage bin behind the condos. Im walking and I see something from the corner of my eye, like someone moving and shit. I look back and there is this dude in a black hoodie walking down the sidewalk. I say fuck it and keep going. I reach the bin and the dude is walking by, looking all nervous and shit. Im like this guy is on crack or something. He is white, baseball cap, black hoodie, didnt see his face that clearly though, black jeans and is like 6'.

All of a sudden the fucker comes up to me, pulls out a fuckin knife and was like "fuckin move, NOW" I mean he didnt touch me but the knife was at my side and shit. Now I was semi-drunk and the first thing out my mouth was "yo man, WTF???" I mean like honestly. It was a brightly lit area and the audacity of this dude was incredible. Then he's like "Move to the fuckin trees over there, now bitch." Now Im getting scared. If I run, dude might stab me and if I go to the trees, this guy may rape, kill me or some shit. But the Lord looks after me. The house like 30 feet away...like 4-5 black guys come out, all loud and shit, laughing and moving towards their cars (i.e. towards us)and dude just runs off. I mean he looked and just ran down the street.

The black guys asked if I was ok and what happened. I couldnt talk really. I was grateful that I didnt embarass myself by fainting or some shit. I kind of just said Im ok, and walked to the house. I should have called the cops or some shit but I mean I really didnt want all the drama. I should have though. Now Im riddled with guilt. Some chick may not be as lucky as I was. I went home and like an hour later, I started to cry. Like it was weird. I came in, I was straight. Not shaking or anything. Took a shower, chilled, watched TV, etc. Then it hit me: that dude could have fuckin killed me. I could have died. Then it just all came out. I was a mess. But screw it, you live and you learn. Life is too precious people. Too precious.

Not going to be the same now...

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 20:36:31 GMT

Ya know what is getting me by...looking forward to things. Like looking forward to moving in, looking forward to buying shit for my crib, or looking forward to seein el otra vez. So I mean all these things I find joy in, when the time comes and when some ish goes awry, my disappointment is profound.

Weekend...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 13:25:04 GMT

Well, another one of my uncles was murdered in DR. Didnt know him that well so Im cool, but mom's is in bad shape. She left for DR saturday. And it seems I have to pay the bills whilst she is gone. Great.

Speaking of bills, they took 2 G's from my account yesterday. My heart stopped. Then I remembered I am buying a house, then it started beating again.

Roshahanna?? Maybe the move. Jewish people get down, so I learned when I went to shabba??? on Friday with my friend. They had a lot of beef...hmmmmm.

Saturday --> took my grieving cousins drinking and dancing. I was the DD so I did not get bent.

Clue is an awesome game.

This school week needs to hurry up and finish.

September 20th, 2006

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 17:28:36 GMT

I am finally under contract. If things go well, yo voy a tener mi propia casa, on September 20th, 2006.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 15:39:42 GMT

Sooo Im in Dominican Republic right now and since the internet is scarce, I must make a note. Im black as shit and as we speak, I have a crucial hang over from drinking a rack of Presidentes last night. Im using my uncles computer at his school where he is vice-principal. And lemme tell you, key boards in latin america are NOT the same as we have...they´re weird as shit. Going to another resort this weekend but to Juan Dolio, last weekend we went to Punta Cana (AWESOME!!!)

Well Im off to go see some historical sites, including the oldest cathedral in the western hemisphere. Yaaay! Yes Im a dork.

Blah blah

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 13:31:12 GMT

Sooooo as of yesterday, we (meaning my mother and I) finally put in an offer for a house in catonsville. Now...there is a lot of waiting. Im sooo anxious, it sucks. My loan officer did an estimate, that I will be paying about $1,600 a month for mortgage. Now this is kinda doable for me, (since the $15,000 I was going to put in as a down payment is no longer necessary)but I need to find room mates ASAP to help umm unload this burden. The house is a rowhouse, 3 bed rooms, huge basement, 1.5 baths and it has carpet (that I will eventually remove if I get the house cause there is a nice wooden floor underneath it). Total cost of the house: $199, 900 and we offered 200, 000 for it and they have to pay 1/2 the closing costs. Man closing costs is a BIATCH!!! Ours will be a grand total of 12,000 and we pay 1/2 if the owners accepts our deal. I wrote a check yesterday for 2,000 dollars as a deposit that will go towards the closing costs. My heart hurts lol. I am now an adult.

Imma have like real bills soon but Im looking forward to having my own crib. I hope there comes a day soon where I can kick everyone out, have no roommies and live by myself. But that day is far into the future. All I can do right now is pray and wait.

On another less serious note, REGGAE WINE FESTIVAL this weekend in Mt. Airy: http://www.linganore-wine.com/

I will be there...last year was awesome. I urled all night and passed out till the next day.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 14:41:44 GMT

Boats are fun...but was too cold for me to tan, so I just chilled, drank, and attempted to catch fish. But I caught like 2 fish. I suck. Maybe when I become a doctor, I can get my house on the water and have my 42' parked in my back yard. *sigh* There were a lot of people there, most from school, some not...but I had a good time. Passed out.

Now, planning to see houses today.

Busy bee...

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 18:12:35 GMT

So buying a house is hard work. But I think I know in what location I am going to move to. Its a good neighborhood, near bmore, and houses there are cheap! Catonsville. Yes, near UMBC. *sigh* I have a couple of prospects, but I want my dad to look at the cribs first, see if they are sound and legit. This will be a long, thought-out process.

Speaking of which, I need roommates!!! So if anyone knows of anyone who wants to move to Catonsville and wants to rent, holla at me!! And I really dont want anyone in undergrad...they can be a bit much.

I am supposedly going to NYC on Saturday for the Puerto Rican Day parade...but I dunno anymore. I want to go to see my sorors and what not but I shouldnt be wasting money like that. I really want to take another cool trip this summer, besides going back to the DR, but we will see though.

Oh yea, Im selling my Compaq Presario 2100 Laptop for $400. 37.2 GB of memory and umm something of RAM, got to get back to you on that. There is no point in me having 2 lap tops.

Looooong time coming

Sat, 20 May 2006 21:57:15 GMT

So Im DONE with my first year of medical school. YAAAAAAAAAAYYYY~!!!!! Good stuff. Now I can behave like Im only 23 again. Got wasted the past 2 nights and dunno how tonight is going to be like, got some options but I may just veg out in front of the TV. Last night was awesome, it was a long time coming. But I dont like being referred to as a hallway in highschool in b/w periods.

I start work Monday. I will be doing my 2nd lab rotation, dealing with cancer now instead of HIV. Should be fun :-(

Ok, need to go decide what Imma do tonight.

Philly...

Mon, 01 May 2006 20:08:33 GMT

So Tasha just emailed me the itenerary (spell?) for this weekend and yes. It shall be on. Ahh I miss her :-( Ok, I can finally leave school and proceed with doing absolutely NOTHING tonight. Its great.

Oh, and I also learned that some of the questions on the exam were mis-keyed AND that some will be dropped. Hopefully raising my grade some! This day keeps getting better and better!! I KNEW some of those answers were wrong! >:-P

FUCK-A-NEURO

Mon, 01 May 2006 14:56:10 GMT

Yea...I have come to a point in my life where I have decided some things. I HATE NEUROSCIENCE!! I studied soooo hard for this exam and I got a 79% on the written part. Thats some BULL SHIT. Lowest grade yet in med school and hopefully the lowest I will ever get. I mean yea, I got a 100% on the dry practical, but thats only 12.5% of our final grade. This written was worth 25%!! I can still get an A in the class, but prolly not. Fuck it. I can live with a B in a subject that I am really NOT interested in.

Now, I have to write this stupid report for ICM on upper GI bleeds. Hey, if you have blood in your feces, you could have an upper GI Bleed!!!!

Being the nice person that I am, I told Kristen, one of my class mates, that I would go to a P and T meeting for her since she cant make it. *sigh* more crap I have to do today. I just want to go to a bar and DRINK myself silly. Is that too much to ask?!?

I really need to get away for a while, so my trip to Philly this weekend should be nice ;-) cant wait to see my sorors again.

Ok, there is work to be done!

And first year is ALMOST done...

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 18:23:12 GMT

I have like 5 weeks left and Im done with this med school shit...for about 3 months. *sigh* But at least I have more free time for fun things AND I AM BUYING MY HOUSE THIS SUMMER!!!! Been saving for a little while now and when June 30th comes around, Imma have a nice couple of G's saved up. But I need to set up an appointment with a loan officer soon, mom's said she would co-sign but you know how family be. So does anyone need a place to stay around like the Laurel, Columbia, (maybe even Bmore *gasp*) area??? I plan on renting the basement or a room out to help with the mortgage. So pray for me people and if you're looking for a place to rent, holla at me round August or even maybe July. I want to move out of the hermano's house before I take my trip to DR.

I am not the only one who needs to move out of a family's home either...YOU need to get on that.

Weather is getting warmer and the summer holds new promises :-)

I hate the fact that my life is so consumed...SUMMER HURRY UP AND GET HERE!!

Hmmm...I think Claudia moving in with me may be a bit too much. I would never get shit done if she was there...

Bday was great...

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 13:08:36 GMT

Im 23 now and my bday was actually pretty good:-) Got tickets to go see Cheaters with Brian McKnight and I actually got pretty tipsy there (since we went to the bar afterwards too).

Cheaters was a great play and I went with some pretty cool peoples...this one guy, Jeff was really nice to me and bought me drinks since it was my bday. At the bar, he kept buying me drinks and he is seemed really pleasant and not rude! Quite a pleasant change :-) He asked me for my number, etc and I gave it to him, but only cause I mean he was nice and spent like a rack of money on drings. And since I guess I should just try to oh I dunno. We will see. I mean I havent been in the "game" for a long time and Im not really ready to "play" yet.

Class does not bang today...I dont want to hear about women and pregnancy now.

Bird Flu...

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 19:08:16 GMT

I got vaccinated yesterday for the Bird flu, Im sure you all have heard about it. So I said screw it and now am part of a vaccination trial. I mean they pay you and what not but I didnt feel too hot yesterday and today my arm is sore. Ah well...at least I will have a better immune response or possible protection against a particular strain IF it ever gets to the US.

Spring Break isnt the same as it was in undergrad...

Niggas...

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 20:05:19 GMT

I have this exam on Friday on some hard ass Pulmonology shit so I was at the library studying. Now, this was a quiet section of the library and all of a sudden, 2 loud as Dominican students (2 guys, and hey, Dominicans in Bmore?) and one white chick came in the joint. So I was at a little desk, trying to ignore them but you know how minorities are! These mother fuckers were laughing, talking all loud (of course in spanish and thats how I can tell where they were from)and the white chick had THE most annoying laugh. Too much. So I leaned over from behind the desk and was like "hey, my bad but can you guys keep it down some? I got this big exam coming up. Thanks." I aint catch no attitude, nothing. White chick was like my bad and they hushed up. BUT then, these 2 latino fuckers (hey they my peoples so I can talk bout them like that) started talking about me in spanish. They were whispering loudly. Maaan, they were like "that light-skinned bitch, blah blah, I thought she was cute when we came in but she all stuck up...blah blah" I was getting a bit peeved. So I just got up went to the bathroom and said "Mira, ustedes si son cobarde, diga me lo que estaba diciendo en mi cara pa ver que puta yo soy!" etc etc.

Obviously they recognized that yes, I am dominican and yes I can speak spanish. Assholes. Dude was like sorry, my bad, didnt mean anything by it, yadda yadda...then tried to hit on me! Too much. This is one of the reason why I date outside my race. I grew up around Dominican/Latino men and they all suck ass (well not all, but I mean the majority). Dont get me wrong, I love my culture and we all tight as shit, but DAMN, niggas are ignorant.

Anywho, saw 16 blocks on sunday and yes Mos Def is impressive as an actor. Unlike 50, who needs to stay off the screen.

Well one thing is for sure, after my exam on Friday, its SPRING BREAK and I am getting FUCKED UP Friday night. Its the day of Pat, so we all must celebrate.

God is good...

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 18:11:07 GMT

...but this Pulmonology section of this upcoming exam is NOT!! I mean come on, they are LUNGS people!! I dont give a RAT'S ASS on how to measure the partial pressures of oxygen in the alveolous or artery...AHHHHH~!!! This is the WORST section yet of first year.

The only thing that is helping me move on is that spring break is coming up. It needs to hurry up and get here...

Ok, got to finish this mess...

Later:-)

Ah Life...

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 13:15:31 GMT

Well Rick and I are no longer "together" but rest assured I am not avidly looking for anyone else. I need to be alone now, but Rick is still talking to me and seeing me. It sounds selfish I know. Being alone and yet still calling Rick like everyday and talking to him and seeing him like nothing has changed. It really hurts but I dont see any other way. Im going through a phase in my life where I have to sit back and just do me for a while. School has been stressing me and has not been giving me ANY time to reflect on who I am. I have a lot of demons to deal with and hopefully I can do it this summer when school is out and Im just working in a lab. Rick is a sweet heart and I love him more then life. He treats me better then any man I have been with and is just great. But there came a point in my life where my emotional and mental states were not entirely dedicated to our relationship. It wasnt fair that I was giving only 75% and Rick 100% to our relationship.

"Medical School ruins lives..." is what my friend Tangela said. I tend to agree with her to a point. I think I always had this personal "problem" in my life, but the stress that medical school gives me intensified my problem and I could no longer deal. I could no longer have any time for myself. If I wasnt studying, I was out with Rick, or doing something for my family. I never had me time to deal with what I had to deal with. I need to be alone for a while. Need to prove to myself that I can be alone and not depend on anyone for my sanity and happiness. Dev said that you can not truly love someone else with out loving yourself first. And that is the truth. I need to love being alone first then I can make an even better partner.

I love Rick, dont get it twisted, and I always will. Lets hope I can figure shit out sooner then later.

In class, missing lecture...ah well.

Pre-love Day

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 01:29:35 GMT

And its the eve before Valentine's Day...so what is love really? I mean we say that we love someone but do we really? The general population, me included, tend not to think too deeply about Valentine's Day, since we are more concerned about whether our significant other will buy us the biggest (and cheapest-looking) teddy bear wrapped in plastic paper dotted with little hearts from Jose and Gustavo on the street. Im cynical this year about Valentine's Day. Dont get me wrong, feeling loved and loving in return is something wonderful that is definitely a gift from God...what gets me is the shallowness and cheapness of it all. But then again, Im just being cynical.

For like the 4th time in the last month, I heard a guy say that Valentine's Day is a woman's holiday and I agree. We expect so much from the men (ahem, or women?) we are with and what do they get in return...ass. We walk around in our skimpy lingerie that we bought from Luvin' Time and give it up to our men, something, I might add, that would have happened anyways, regardless of the diamond necklace he spent half his pay check on.

So for one day out of the year, we women can truly whore ourselves out for gifts that our men bestow upon us. So ladies buy the most sluttiest, fish net, nurse's out fit you can find and work for your gifts!!

So Yea...Super Bowl Wasnt that Great...

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 17:02:55 GMT

What do I give the Super Bowl this year...MEH. It was a fluke game, like come on. I was sitting there, watching good ol Ben do like the most snickiest shit ever! Now you know, a TD is when the BALL crosses the plane of field BEFORE it hits the ground right? Did you see the replay? Roethlisberger looked at the camera/Ref like "Yea, ummm hope this counts." So the Sea Hawks did not win and I am a bit sad, only a tad cause fuck everyone else, Im a Redskins fan. I watched the super bowl with my Redskins shirt on cause WE should have been there dammit! Ah well, next year.

Anywho, I drank a bit last night...before my Cell Physiology exam. Now I didnt get wasted but Rick was like, "You didnt drink/smoke with us Saturday night, but you drank the night before your exam?" Ok, here is my reasoning. By the time the Super Bowl came on, I have already studied like 7 hours. All day Saturday I studied, and all day and night Friday. Come on. By that point, if I didnt know the shit, I wasnt going to get it. So I sat there with my pine apple juice and malibu, couple of Corona's, and my flash cards. And watched the Super Bowl. I got a 95%.

So this health lady at school called my cell friday and blew the ish out of me. I have to go get a TB test. Like they were supposed to tell me in September, it is now February...please get your stuff together people. In addition to that, I have to go to Largo and pick up me pills AND dentist appt today at 2. Like I cant even CHILL after my exam cause of all this ish.

Moms wants me to come over tonight and spend some time with her. I havent really seen her since like the holidays. Im a horrible daughter :-( School has me missing out on my mom!

VDay is coming up and I know what I am getting Rick, sort of. He is a hard person to buy things for. Cause if its not super-ultra unique, with bright colors, clear insoles, and costing over 500 he doesnt like it. *sigh*

"Yuuuup, current is the movement of positive electrons"...and I said it with a straight face!

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 15:27:59 GMT

School is school. BUT I did manage to earn an A in biochemistry :-) I was sooo happy!!! My first med school A! YAAAAYYY!! But now we are doing Physiology and to be real, its like Physics 122 at UMBC all over again, just now with medical applications. Dammit. Things have been going great, Im moving closer and closer to buying my own house, school is stressful but doable, Rick is very supportive of the time I spend studying (sorry hun you should get tang soon), and my car is still holding up.

WOW...Rick had to pull a knife on a nigga over some Jordans. See this is why niggas cant have shit. I mean they are fuckin SHOES, its not that serious man! What would MLK Jr. say if he saw niggas beefin over some damn shoes? (If you saw the Boondocks episode last week, well we have an idea what he would have said). Too much. Dude was about to fight Rick over them joints. Well I got my 11's eariler in the year so Im straight, and I dont even like the 6's so I want pressed to get them. Ah well, Rick is safe and thats what matters.

So my mom is pressing me for some grand kids, and thus she is pressing me for marriage. Ummm, nah. Rick and I both think its waaay too early for all that shit. Yet I am the only female in my family over 21 with no kids...hmmmm

Im happy cause Im going to DR in the summer :-) 3 weeks of tropical weather and lazying around my families houses down there. Cause down there we are actually rich lol.

Ok, going to Papi's to get my car fixed, getting the hair did, studying, and spending time with the hombre. Yea I need some special attention.

Looooong time..

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 13:58:44 GMT

The holidays have come and gone and they were decent. My tio and primos are in the states for the holidays and hanging out with them has been awesome. My tio Esteno is funny as all hell and my cousins are sweet. They are actually staying in the states but my tio is going back to DR on the 17th :-( I can tell that Adebe (yea, dominicans have original names...) is going to get some girl pregnant. I give him a year lol. My other cousin Franklin has been taking the poor boy out (he is 20) and introducing him to his female "friends" Dominican men are such dogs. lol Thats why I dont date my own race.

Anywho, New Years was good. Bear and Susan got me sick so I've had this annoying cold the past week. DAMMIT. School started again and I have been back on the grind for a week now. BAH~! I cant wait till the summer. Im soo done with med school at this point.

Sooo we finally met Jackie, Chris's GF. And she is nice :-) It was a "triple date" with Jason and Erica, whom for some reason Rick just doesnt like lol. Rick can be mean sometimes, but its funny tho ;-) We saw Hostel and yes that movie gave me heart burn. Now you would think since I've actually removed human kidneys, and brains, and actually cut the optic nerve of a human being that I wouldnt squirm when I saw the same thing on screen...well I did dammit. I guess the whole torture thing doesnt sit well with me.

I have to start thinking about what Imma do for spring break. Rick and them are supposedly going to Amsterdam but Im sure they're not going to get it together before then. So I really want to go to Niagra Falls. The man and I were supposed to go last summer, but we went to Miami instead. I think its time for another couple trip :-) Those are fun! And we havent had enough "special time" together so I feel we have A LOT of making up to do. And our living arrangements make it hard...I need to move out of my hermanos house soon and get my own crib. Needs to happen before then end of summer...

Ok class is starting again so I will be sure to come back later...

X-mas is getting near...

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 22:19:26 GMT

Same old, same old...nothing new. Went to see King Kong yesterday and that movie was the TRUTH. Now Rick says I cry at every movie and thats just NOT true, but King Kong was a beautifully-made movie. It had EVERYTHING!!! Love story, compassion, niggas getting stomped by big ass dinosaurs, insects the size of foot ball players, comedy, morals...you name it. The movie had me stressed the first 2 hours! So much action that looked so AWESOME!!! Naomi Watts really surprised me. I mean she had the Ring and some other movies but she did a great job here. Jack Black was awesome too. GO SEE IT!

Been studying all day and I have a crucial headache. I think Julio and I are going out to dinner and Im chillin at the house for the rest of the night. Got a lot of work to do. I have my last exam of the year on the 21st and right afterwards Imma finish my christmas shopping. Im soooo behind! Going to pick up Cosita tomorrow (she is our chiuaua) since the family is going to DR on Tuesday. Im happy goes my doggie is going to stay with me and Julio for 2 weeks :-)

I need dinner cause havent eaten ish today...later:-)

Christmas Wont be the same...

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 22:23:29 GMT

Im blown...once again I get dicked on getting to go home. So my dad, Angela, and the kids are all going to La Quesqueya for the Holidays. Im sad :-( I once again miss out on going to my beautiful island off some med school shit. But you know what? Its ok though. Dammit Im going to DR over the summer and THATS THAT~!!! If I have enough money left over after buying this house...aww man Im growing up too fast.

School is school. Its hard, I like it at times, but this last test on Monday was a blower. I worked so hard for a freakin' 83%. Bull shit. I guess I need to change my study habits, but how I dont know!

So half my immediate family will be in DR yet again this year and this sucks beyond all measure. Come on man! Its not fair :-( I have to buy my gifts soon and Imma just get that out the way probably after this weekend. Lord knows I hate being a late shopper.

Ok, back to this biochem stuff. Med school makes my major in undergrad look like a freakin' joke...

Yea Med school = No time for shit!

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 19:10:19 GMT

Been busy with med school. We started our new class, Cellular and Molecular Biology with some Genetics and Biochemistry thrown in. Its ok. A TON of information on concepts that I have already learned...its like they are squeezing my 4 years of undergrad in a 10 week course. Sucks. We had our first open book exam today, I studied so hard for it, that I didnt really have to look anything up. I think I over did it but I did ok on the exam. We wont know our exact score till later.

As for anatomy, I called it, I got a B+; An 88.7%. DAMMIT!! Ah well, lets see if I can get an A in biochem;

THANKSGIVING is tomorrow and I cant wait. Partying with my mother, of course, and I shall consume much food!! Rick says he wants to go out and get drunk but I doubt that will happen on Thanksgiving. My party night is TONIGHT!!!

Well I have a lot more stuff that has happened but I dont feel like typing anymore.